No, not sick!

So I've been up and down all day. Got an attack of freezing-to-death while watching a movie, litterally shaking so my teeth sounded like a rattlesnake! Then my dear roomie lent me her heatable pillow, and I went to bed dressed like an eskimo, hugging the pillow tightly. And then I got so hot i thought i would melt... Have to go to work tomorrow, and I'm coughing my brain out, and can't sleep. Yummy!
:(

A new script is born... soon

So Today I officially started. Pen in hand (or rather, laptop open), focus on top and a with burning flame inside I finally started working on the next shoe. Possiblities are endless. The story dark and fascinating, Can't wait to get it done!!!
Yesterady I saw Hamlet on the theatre in Stockholm. Great show, really smart solutions in some scenes. 
Happy birthday, next play.

Fame

Just finished watching it. I missed the famous scene on the street where all the kids starts singing and dancing to the theme song. Otherwise it was good. Makes me dream. Not of the fame afterwards, but of the life while pursuing the art. the craft. I want to go back so bad, work hard every day to become the best I could. And while doing it, hang out with wonderful and amazing people. I loved the monologue on success. Success is being so excited about everything you have to do that you fly out of the door, and when you finally go to bed you know that you've done the very best you could. Loving every moment of it.
And I will be successful.
Famous scene to the theme song

Du...

Prinsessan hon låg och lekte
Men prinsen kom aldrig igen
Min prins bad aldrig, bevekte
kom aldrig mer igen
Men prinsen är inte bortglömd
prinsessan hon mindes allt sen...

Temptations

Why is it that we are so often driven to do things we know from the get-go are bad for us? And WHY is there so much info so accesible on the internet? Like facebook. You look someone up, and in less than five minutes you know more than you should, or at least you THINK you know more than you should, because your brain immediately starts filling out the bits and holes that are missing. 
I don't want to know what's going on. Yet some part of me do. 
I know I must focus everything elsewhere. So much going on, so much awaiting. 
I need to put a 110% into my new life. Now.

Opening Night

So its finally here.
The night we've been waiting for, working so hard towards...
The musical Martyrion is about to be presented for the world!

I am so excited, so stoked, so happy... The crew has been fantastic all along, and it would be fortunate foor anyone to experience what I have experienced.

Love you all

Let's show the world what God has done!!!

Amazing night... :(

So I wake up at 4.30. No biggie, usually go right back to sleep. Except this time I'm not. At 5.30 I cant ignore that I'm hungry any longer, so i get up and eat some improvised breakfast. And watch gossip girl meanwhile. 
Then its time for sleep round two, or at lest that's what I thought. Back in bed, knowing that i am really tired and really need to sleep i lay wide awake staring out onto my messy messy floor. Thinking about what i could be doing with my time at this dark hour. Study. Clean. Do some laundry. 
Nope, instead i get out my laptop and answer emails, comments and now, obviously, write on my blog. Man, i wish it was later. 

Musical process

So Now it's officially two weeks left. Two weeks in which christmas must fit, along with all the "must-do's" But do we really must? Is that all what it is? Of course not. I buy presents because I want to, I clean and decorate the house because it makes it cozy... and I taake time off to be with my family, and contemplate the extraordinary miracel of a child being born, a litte boy that will save us all... if we let him.

So in honor of this child, because of the grown mans offer, the love, the faith, many, many people have followed him, loved him, even when the price was high. Even when the price was your own life.

It is hard to grasp in a country where religious freedom is something taken for granted. To get your head cut off, or your body ripped apart by hungry beasts because of what you believe in? But it has been a reality for so many, and it still is for some.

So this musical I'm working on, Martyrion (greek for "Witness"), is to honor the memory of some of these devoted followers. Of people who stood by their faith, even into death.

Rehearsal Process


Amen

Rehearsal, rehearsal, rehearsal....

I dont know how many hours it is going to add up to in the end, but it sure is a lot!!
But it's awesome, i'm loving every second of it!

I have a great team, great project....

Yesterday we went to pick out costumes from The Swedish Film Institutes old costume shop. AWESOME!!!!
Never seen so many clothes in one place in my whole life! And with some holy help we very efficiently managed to find costume for every character! Bless!!!

Excitement blows away the tireness

So this weekend is rehearsal weekend! We're going to go through the biggest scenes in the musical, one by one. This will show how much work actually is left to do... Kind of thrilling!!!

But I am truly happy with the whole crew, everyone is just amazing!!

Yeasterday was a great day, went to the theatre and saw Peter Pan, then dinner and movie with a friend. Just awesome with relaxing nights, more of those please!!!

I'm at work now, about to go to bed.

Sleep tight!

Beginning of the week, and now begins the rest of my life

Monday night. For once, I'm not tired!!
Yesterday and the day before was so great, it's really been a wonderful and amazing weekend. Yesterday I baked some bread and cookies, aw well as "christmasifying" my apartment. Around six I went to my grandparents house for a cup of tea - very nice! I love them so much! Afterwards I went out to eat with some friends, and ened the night with a game of "Yuppie" -terrific game!!!

Today I had a lecture in stockholm and for the first time I wasn't at all tired! Great!
Now me and my roomie will have an impromptu makeover - Get the camera!

WOW, what a day!

I can't believe this day, but I've loved every moment of it!
We had a seven hour rehearsal for Martyrion, the musical I'm directing. Everyone brought so much energy, so much spirit and were in such a good mood that it all passed by very quickly!

Coming home (in such a good mood that NOTHING could have brought med down) I went to the store, bought some food and stuff, and then back home. Spent the evening adventifying my home, cleaning tha kitchen and starting to bake some bread! Man, I'm on a roll!!

Just got out from the bath tub, nothig is as relaxing as a hot, sentenced bath in companion with a good book.

I'm so satisfied, so happy. And so eager t continue this work!!!

God bless!!!!!

I can('t) help falling in love...

I see it happen all over the place. People falling – like leaves from the trees during fall – everywhere. All the time. For someone else. And I both pity and envy them. I wanted to fall so deep and hard for you. Wanted my dreams of the future to melt down inte our dreams of the future.

But here I stand, still incapable of blindly throwing myself out there. Both feet on the ground, planted, maybe scared or just too cynical. Eyes that have seen to much pain does not want to take risks when the stakes are too high.

”Rather love and be hurt than never love at all” – never. And let me say something; you can get hurt anyway. And you can love anyway. Even if the way you love is different, and even if the pain is only partly yours to bear.

But I think about you

Much to do about everything

Wow!
Getting up knowing that you have a busy busy day really forces you to throw off the blanket. But today, busy busy is kind of exciting! It's theatre all the way, and thruth is I'm SO pumped for the task!
First rehearsal for the musical today, man it feels good to start!
Then some paperwork, of course, both for that and for my classes.

Living the dream, loving the life!

Sometimes like right now

Sometimes you're tired, yet full of energy and lust o life.
Want to sleep, to wake up renewed and ready to go, to become, to complete and behold...

Doing a masterpiece in collaboration with others. Lifefilling, triving, exciting... I want time to rush by so fast, like a fastforwarded movie, so I can get to the end of this year, see the result and maybe, finally, figure out if these choices were wise... or just plain stupidity.

Good morning, sun.
Good night, Harlequin, joker of fate.
Good morning to you!

70-hours work week

So, I'm about to fall asleep... I hope. Quite tired.
Tomorrow we'll have a read- through with the cast for the musical, quite exciting. But before that, I have a night of probably not too much sleep. Or I'll be lucky and sleep like a baby all night long!

After all, it's my own fault for accepting so much work. On the other hand, I like to help out. And monday will feel very sweet when I have all nitgh and all of the next morning to myself - unless I go to the lecture. That I should go to! Oh, we'll see...




Sometimes you just want to get away!

Surprising news

So she told me  "I leave on tuesday".
And I said nothing. I didn't stay quiet, but nor did I rejoyice in her delight, showing her how happy I am for her sake.
But I am.
I am also scared, althought I do't want to admit it.
I have no doubt in her, she will be fine. But I? I will be fine too, its just that...
I will miss her, so much. To see her in the corridor at work is one of the highlights of my job. Didn't tell her that.
She'll develope so much, grow in experience and knowledge. Didn't tell her that either.

I love you, sister. I did tell you that.

So long time ago, but its still us!

Taken long, long time ago. But its still us :)

Friday!

So tired, yet so content. Job is finished, I have a new movie waiting and I don't have to leave the house anymore today! Yezz....

Now it's just me, feels a little odd after having been surrounded by people for so long, but it feels good too. SOme me-time.

Should I make some dinner? Or just eat popcorn? Hm, hard decisions to make...

Back from the sea

What a weekend!
On sathurday we went to Stockholm to see Paul van Dyke play. My roomies sister know him (and she KNOWS him, not just ran into him once) so after the show we went backstage, just teh five of us and his crew. Pretty fun!

Then yesterday we went on a cruise, and I had the most AMAZING dinner. Seriously, haven't had such a good meal in ages! Ate raindeer as a main course and then pear with creme brulée as dessert. Yummy!

Now it is pizza time and a chick flick. Sometimes, life is good...'

Bless

Lite mer än ett år sen...

Idag är det ett år och fem dagar sedan... Känns som en lång tid, samtidigt som det faktiskt inte är så länge sedan. För ett år, en månad och tre dagar sedan visste jag inte ens att du fanns.Under tiden som gått sedan dess har du gått från att inte bara existera, utan till att bli huvudpersonen i mitt liv näst mig själv, för att sedan bli ett mine som ömsom värmer, ömsom skaver.

Saknaden förvirrar mig, beslutsgrunden vacklar. Jag hoppas för mitt liv att beslutet var rätt, men det gör ändå ont ibland. Jag hoppas att du mår bra, att alla nya projekt är framgångsrika. Att du är framgångsrik. Att du är lycklig...

Solnedgång på min födelsedag, och många minnen som snurrar...

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