Old times today

Yesterday a friend of mine gave me this disc. It contained a bunch of pictures taken in 2006, when me and my friend did a photoshoot. I looked so young! Real fun to see those frames :)

Today I've been a really good girl - I cleaned the apatrment and got some stuff in order, and then I went to the gym and worked out!! second day in a row! Congrats to me :)

2 am

I just got home... many social activities today, my sisters birthday party, a housewarming party and a corridor party. And then off to a club only to drop off a key to my roomie. Ant then my sweet friends gave me a ride home.

The only thing, though...
I feel lonely.
I wish ceasar was here... and maybe someone else too.

It sucks when you miss so much and can't take action.

The sound of silence

If you bite your teeth together really really hard, you can't say a word. So if you are afraid of what might come out, just shut your teeth together. It might hurt a little bit, especially if you accidently got your tounge stuck in between, but at least you won't hurt somebody else with your words.

I heard Simon Garfunkel denied the rights for a play titled "the sound of silence". It's a theatre in Riga that has been touring with it, and were going to perform it in Stockholm. The music of Simon and Garfunkel plays a crucial part to the developement of the story, and somebody notified the original producing company.

So no more play, at least not in Stockholm.


Ok, so I'm trying to map out what kind of litterature I need for this semster. It is not an easy thing to figure out when the teachers doesn't put down when we need said literature!

I am very excited about this semster, and I think it will be great.
Very very busy, but great :)

And its only the first half that is hectic. The second half will be much slower :)

Let's have some busy fun!

That faboulus, ignorant bliss

Just got back from my friends house. It's really nice sometimes to just be able to bitch about reality. Parts of it are just so messed up. Like you wanna cut it all off, move across the ocean and be totally oblivious to what used to be home. That would be... lovely.

On the other hand, I really love my job. I got two new students today, so I'm really excited about that.
And I'm going to see my fair lady september 3. That should be really fun.
And Sama got home today! She's been living in Syriah for 8 months, working at the swedish ambassy. Such a hot shot, my friend ;)

Well, I'm off.

Me, Sama and Becci!

Spending time with my sister

Today started off as not so great. Missed the train to Stockholm at 10.09 I was going to take (Yes, I stod behind the freaking lattice barrier and saw the train leaving.) So then I decided to take the local train - guess it wasn't meant to be, since the door closed and the train left as I walked up to it. Awsome. So THEN I decid to take the bus, which would leave at 10.30. I ran to the stor eto buy a ticket and then back. Waiting. Waiting some more. Realize the bus at 10.30 doesn't run on tuesdays!!! So I had to wait until 11... What a great start!!!!

After having a few emotional breakdowns I finally get on the bus and on to Stockholm, fix my errands, meet up with my bundis and the back to Uppsala and work.

I got three new students today, which I'm very excited about!! After work my sister comes home with me, and I help her making highlights. We had so much fun!!!!

I love you, little sister, don't forget that when I embarrase you in front of your friends! ;)

...på Chris studentfest

Me and Marielle on Chris' graduation party

There is a little ghost trying to fright me

I feel so weird... Like a part is missing, from time to time. I'm not sad, really, I'm just... empty. I wish, i really wish, things were different. Sometimes it's hard to not pick up the phone. But promises are promises, and need to be kept. Let it rest, m dear, just let it rest...

Tomorrow I'll go to the University of Stockholm to register for a theatre course. I'm excited to take it, it should be very interesting. Too bad my best friend won't live there anymore, it could have been a really nice semester if she did. Well, you can't have everything, at least I got much more than nothing.

If only I didn't feel o weird. Scared.

Hurt sound awfully much like heart

This time, I'm not sure of what to write. Yesterday was tough. I hurt somebody who doesn't deserve it. A person who only deserves the good thing in life, because you should get the same you give. Happiness. Love. Comfort. And I can't offer comfort, or happiness, or love... not now, even if I really wish I could.

I wish I knew this path I'm walking on... I wish I knew where it would lead to.


Back home

This freaking restless feeling, when you just land and the only thing on your mind is that you want to get back up.

I love it here. My wonderful friends, more than friend, siblings, parents, my apartment... everything is so great, and I just got the perfect job. So why can I not let that be enough? Why can't I just settle down and enjoy life?

That next trip, kick, excitement is too strong... My longliving dream, the magic, that vein of creation and longing for the stage is too strong, and I can't feed it enough here... I need to go back! I must find a way, even though it is inconvinient, even though there are so many "but"...

Just one more year. Then maybe I'll know....

A wonderful, wonderful place

It's so hard to leave a place where you've been so genuinly happy.
Where memories lingers that always make you smile. A place of such joy, intensity and FUN!

Of course, you who know me knows perfectly well what place I'm talking about. What other place could it be than Chico? College life. Crazyness. Friends. And hard work, late nights and new knowledge. The lengths I would go through to relive that year. Or just this last week. You must know, all of you, that you've had a great impact on my life and my heart. I wish I could just freeze time and return to the exact same place whenever I can. Not grow older. Live in my own Utopia, with all its imperfectness but nevertheless perfect for me.

I will never forget. Anything of it all.

With Love

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